Sunday, September 30, 2007

The Unthinking Majority

i ended up watching Game Plan last night. to be honest, i could care less about The Rock and his debut in movies. but wow, this movie, was actually pretty damn cute. the little girl did it for me. i loved her.

it was freezing last night. etc etc.

we stopped by the new park by my place. it looks a bit similar like the one on buffalo and blue diamond. i didn't get out to go see if there was grass or anything, but i saw a huge playground out in the distance.

we got bored. 3 cars. we all drove around this island circle and kept going. i got so dizzy.

today, jessica and i were gonna try and apply at sushiko cause nadia's dad owns the restaurant i guess. we decided we should eat there, plus sudden urge for sushi. little to our knowledge, they don't do all you can eat sushi. i almost had a heart attack. but then by the time i found out, they had already given us water and cucumber salad. i got really sad. we planned to eat a little then leave.

it was weird cause everyone was speaking chinese. i forgot nadia was chinese. but that's kind of gay. hiring only chinese people. i guess i'd fit in.

i need a jobbbb. i feel weird having free time.

im so glad i didn't have to go to unlv. but i will have to stay longer tomorrow. i gotta help the noobs in japanese so they pass our first exam.

good news is, i got a 95 on my first homework essay and an 83 on my exam in poli sci. i could've sworn i did way better, but im still quite happy. yay for cramming @__@.

i was going to write something else but i can't remember what.

alexa's mom's food is delicious. i love philippino food.

i still can't remember what i wanted to write though.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Stripped

I'm surprised at this remake of Depeche Mode. Shiny Toy Guns did a fairly interesting, but well job on it.

i guess alma read my blog at chris'. and im pretty sure everyone there read it as well. bum bum bum.

i hella slept until 4pm today. i totally wasted my saturday.

my mom invited me to some show at mandalay bay, called Fong Fei Fei. some chinese show. but if i went, i wouldn't be sitting with her. the fuck. hahah. if i was, i'd probably go just for the experience. why the fuck not? never been to an asian show before.

i talked to ron on the phone for like 2 hours. i miss him so much.

i miss tiffany as well.

i finally picked up my ups package full of postcards that i made. now i can finally start mailing them with pictures that i've taken and a lot of old pictures from the past. it'll be fun. so let's keep this a secret and not tell them. im a little disappointed in some of the pictures in how they came out. but i guess since some of them are really old, so quality is just shitty in general. oh well. it's cool nonetheless.

i ended up not going to work cause my co-worker had an asthma attack. i guess my last day of work is never going to come. seriously.

another thing. im fucken terrified of suzanna. im scared to hang out with her. and she's fucken creeping me the fuck out.

i feel bad for danny. i hella bailed on him. but i really didn't want to hang out with suzanna.

she started this convo today on facebook about pads. you know. like pads you use for your menstrual cycle. yeah well she was talking about how there are reusable ones and how you can wash it or something and fucken reuse it. that is fucking gross. who the fuck would want to reuse a pad. and who the fuck starts a convo like that out of talking about college majors and shit. im so confused.

she even sent danny a text today

"i saw you making a left turn onto spring mountain from rainbow at 4:09 pm."

im scared. im scared. im scared.

oh yeah. it's alex's birthday today. i wanted to go hang out with her today but no one called me.

well scratch that, i got ahold of them. i guess im gonna go watch a movie with them.

i think i miss alex too. i used to go to her house every fucken day of my life last year. the second i got out of school, i went straight to her house. wasted a few hours then went to work. it was such a nice routine. what happened to that.

now she's miss party girl. completely changed. damnit.

well movie time now. late

Eleanor Rigby

so i'm still awake. and to be honest, i've come across some blogs and actually sat down and read through them. it amazes me how much pain... what goes on through these people's minds. it's funny, well i guess not funny, but in my rough draft about my fellow classmate, i mentioned something similar to that.

"Throughout my life, I have only gone through the usual standard protocols, such as going to school, getting a job, and juggling everything around my social life. Though, I have never stopped to think about all the different people who I pass by everyday and what they go through or the thoughts that they have. We all do it, obliviously thinking about ourselves and never giving a second thought to others around. "

A little help from Marcio because I passed out and was working on my other TSS assignment, but pretty much.

I honestly feel bad. well i don't know how i should put this. i feel like i'm always helping people. or helped. i've always done this, done that, for people. and i remember in my other blog, i wrote how i'm going to stop giving a shit. not necessarily that crude or blatant, but it made me realize how much i draw myself to people's drama. drama that i do not need in my life. i'll be completely honest. ever since the whole incident with cathleen, i've completely drew myself away from negativity. i've kept my head high, continued on, worked my ass off at work, and tried to have the best times ever. and not only did i do this, i think i had the best summer of my life. I finally dropped people who were bringing me down in my life. And the only person I kept by my side... is Jessica. I thank her for confiding to me because she was always keeping to herself. i'm so grateful that i was able to talk her way out of the terrible things she was inflicting upon herself. and im glad that she's still in my life, after all these years. and we still act as stupid as hell, be serious when we need be, do homework/study sessions together, regardless that she's 1 year below me and at CSN. i've never been any more grateful. and i'm actually tearing up writing this.

but anyways, what i was trying to get at was. I gave up on people who wouldn't let go of stupid things that were getting in the way of our friendship. and it's still like that as of today. and to be honest, i've never been any happier. but at the same time, i miss it. but hey, who wouldnt

though, because of the new way i've picked up, it's just so hard to make new friends. i was hoping i'd meet a lot of people in college. and to be honest, the only people i've actually MET is Josh, Victor and Jenny. I don't see any of us going far in friendships. or well, maybe Josh actually. but it's just aquaintances.

in all seriousness, i envy alma. i envy how she was able to fall right into Ron's group. Yes Alma. I spent the last 2 hours reading your entire blog. And I envy you. I was feeling the exact same way.

This summer. I was able to finally spend time with my best friends. Tiffany and Ron. Finally. Because we were so caught up in key club, student council, school, this and that. We were only able to set aside time for just US 3 once. and it was to eat at tofu hut. i believe this was back in february cause i remember confiding to them about my feelings for richard at the time. it's fucking disappointing in how much we've all been through and how little time we had for each other. tiffany and ron went to the same fucken school whereas i fucken moved to spring valley. and to be honest, i kind of think it made our friendship that much stronger. not only do we consider ourselves best friends, we were able to just pick up right where we left off when we were together. tiffany and ron went to the same school, but they never even hung out with each other. it's just crazy how we all separate into our groups of friends. but its just how it is. to be honest, for the 3rd time, i was jealous of lotus. lotus was spending every waking moment with tiffany. and whenever ron and i wanted to hang out with tiffany, tiffany would blow us off. it hurt us. a lot. but i get it, lotus has been there for her.

this goes the same for ron's friends. dallas, niki, alexa and chris. i wish i had made real friends like you guys. people i can just fucken go to whenever i want. people who i know will have my back. who i can confide to. i lost this because something fucking so stupid. but then i think about it, i dont think that friendship wouldve sustained for long anyways cause cathleen was bound to be mad about something anyways.

im hella ranting, but alma's blog totally made me feel so guilty. i want to be there for you alma. but i felt as though, you have these new group of friends, you really dont need me. i mean look at you guys. you have the same exact schedule. you car pool. you hang out 24/7. i always feel left out when im around because im missing out on all these alias names, inside jokes, friendship fish, what the fuck ever. i am so jealous.

no, i don't want your sympathy. no i don't want you guys in particular to start having me hang out. i just had to get this off my chest.

maybe i'll make a new blog and actually write my personal thoughts in it like this. or i'll continue in this blog. usually when i write something truly emotional, i mark it as private so only i can see it. this is why my other blog is completely empty and boring. plus a lot of people read that blog.

you guys are still welcome in blogging here. but i guess reading people's blogs inspired me to finally write something meaningful instead of stupid shit about what i did that day.

another thing. for some reason i don't capitalize anymore. it's influenced by jila. then i just got used to it. but in my really early blogs, i always capitalized. whatever, i usually use the correct grammer otherwise.

okay i think i should try to get a few hours of sleep in before i go show my co-worker how to use quickbooks.

finally. my last day of work.



oh and another thing. i miss crista. i miss her. i miss my fucking best friend. but you're so fucking indulged in your relationship with shantia. we haven't even talked since i fucken fled your house. since i got angry at you. im sorry if this is the end of our friendship. and it's been months. i want to know if you're doing well at CSN. i want to know if you're driving well, since i guess you got your license. i want to know what the fuck you've been up to. but i can't call. because i'm scared. im scared to leave a message. to just ask for you. cause i already know the answer. "she's at shantia's". i just don't want to hear it anymore. i just wish you would just open your eyes to how much shit you've put me through. but regardless. i miss you. and i still owe your mom money. or you owe me money. i don't know. whatever.

procrastination

i've finally come down to a decision. never ditch class again. or at least english. cause... oh yeah, i fail if i ditch again lol.

anyways. it's windy. but it's cold. i like it.

alex and dallas finished the speaker shoebox. it's awesome.

alma, alexa, alex, dallas and i went to a haunted house down by the sunset station. it was fairly short, but then again it was only 11 dollars. as usual, i screamed like a little bitch. : \

what else.

swish was awesomely delicious as usual.

oh and i did a totally random job interview today at nevielle's work to see if i can take over her position while she's on vacation in the philippines. not sure if i'll get it with my shitty school hours. or pretty much they're worried about tuesday and thursday cause i gotta sit in for the receptionist cause she goes on lunch break i guess.

i like silent car rides, when im not driving. even though it's completely silent, it's like the best feeling. especially when the windows are all rolled down, you're going 10-15 miles over speed limit, blasting good music. but when someone is in my car and im driving, and it's silent, i think it's awkward. @__@. but i'd like to think they feel the same way as i do when im the passenger... the liking of the silent ride. or something. i don't know where im going with this.

i think i fell asleep for like 10 minutes with alexa on alex's bed. and then woke up to "why would you shoot her" or something. :(

which btw, chris hella shot me with a blowgun in my thigh. and it hurt.

and i read hella facts from the book, i think titled why men have nipples. or something. like you shouldn't pee on jellyfish stings, it actually creates a worse burning sensation. though, put household vinegar on it instead. or how it's not wise to use q-tips for your ears. or how semen is not really fattening, but totally nutritious with most of the vitamins you get from a usual breakfast.

i think im getting a friendship fish tomorrow. yay.

why am i still awake. siodhgoisdhgosdihg

oh yeah. and i was telling yan about the crank dat spiderman cause i guess in texas, soulja boy is finally sweeping the college campus. she even showed me a video where the entire football team was doing the dance. http://youtube.com/watch?v=4US7L6ypRk4

then we were looking around and there's a crank dat batman and a crank dat lion king. http://youtube.com/watch?v=4vE39cwJGf0

awkwardddd.

im done.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

25 Cent Tuesday

BWW 25th Anniversary = 25 cent wings :o

it's amazing how cheap it ended up being after getting 30 wings. lolol. it STILL wasn't as expensive as the Dip N' Dots ice cream we got earlier. lol.

i wanna see Dan In Real Life tomorrow. i hope i can obtain those tickets. @__@.

what else.

OH YEAH. i could've sworn i quit my job. why am i still working. :(

4 square is fun. i wish i could remember the rules though.. i miss pat diskin.

i can go across the monkey bars though. :D

Monday, September 24, 2007

HEROES!!!!

HEROES!!!!

volleyball soccer!

frisbee!

lime green flags with alma!

hand tapping game!

bullfrog song game!

yay!

weather is nice

Job hunting = failure today.

Other than that.

Sushi was freaking deliciously awesome and now my stomach hurts from eating too much :D

I'm behind in English now :(

The End.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

i love rain

i just got home about 15 minutes ago. what the hell did i do today? geezus. btw, it fucken rained all day. fucken pewpew even though we didn't go on the boat trip, which is totally okay.

but i ditched english. and my last day of work.

does that make me a bad person? lololololol.

okay im over it. late.

Friday, September 21, 2007

I heart you real good

Cell phone, raptor, and jackhammer what do things have in common? The answer nothing. I just wasted you time. That pointlessness of blogs when nothing exiting happens in your life. Well I'm pretty sure a paragraph has to be 3 sentences long. My point you ask? There isn't one its quite dull.




What's on my mind? Charlene is on my mind. She's inside Dallas's loft, and secretly I hope she falls off the ledge to her death. How exciting would that be? Just kidding! I need to work on my convincing eyes. I'm not really good at convincing people to do things anymore. Seriously, though, Charlene needs to fall off the ledge right now. She already has her head and one of her arms off the ledge, now the rest of her body just needs to fall. OMG, i looked up and she disappeared. I immediately looked on the floor to she if she had fallen, but unfortunately, she didn't. Hahaha. JK. Don't die.




hiiii. im sitting in Dallas' loft thing in his room. it's quite cozy up here. very. and im typing. it's so cool. :D and im watching the light go fro m dark to bright nonstop. it's creazy. im staring at alma and alexa laying on dallas' bed in the s. uh oh, i cant figure out where i typoed cause there's no screen in front of me. oh bopy. anyways. i think they should spoon because alma's behind alexa and she can just scoot just a little bit up to her. like literally, 2 feet. and they'd be spooning.




im also watching dallas and alex take apart cell phones. old cell phones. of dallas' dad. i don't know if they're going to put them back together or what. but they seem intrigued by their findings. ie. speakers. possibly the camwera.




what else.




i read niki's blog and i don't like how he said "she was on my my jock". the fuck nigga, you wish i was on your jock. you fucking wishhhhh. i dont like guys who put me down 24/7 and thinks sdghidsoihgsd fucked up. anyways. i dont like people who act hella cocky and shity. it's quite annoying. you know. being around someone who act....i like messing up without being able to see hthe screen. cause some of these keys get stuck on the keyboard and it's annoying the hell out of me. weee.




so we're also waiting on niki. ot's been a good hour +. we've decided to go model home shopping and it's not going well becuause niki sucks. and is taking a year to get ready. : im done. that's what she said.




I attempted to type this while balancing on the indo board, but failed...horribly. It's alright. I'm indifferent about everything and didn't expect myself to do well, so I'm not surprised. Today we were all suppose to go to the lake, but didn't because of the weather. Speaking of the weather, Charlene, Dallas, Alex and I went to Wal-Mart yesterday to get a pair of board shorts, a taboo timer, and some gum. It was quite the productive evening. It then started to rain and that was just the cherry on top. Alex is trying to lurk over my shoulder and read these words that I'm putting down now...he just doesn't understand. Anyways..... THE END.