Charades

Fucking Niki and fucking milk tea. Fucking KevJumba and Demetri Martin videos. Whatever the fuck it was, I stayed up until 7am. I'm leaning toward the tea because I'm not big on caffeine and have been pretty free of it for years. Nothing major at least.

I crashed and set my alarm at 10am just incase if Rave called me. They never did, so I continued to pass out. Some random number called me and the instant I woke up they hung up after the first ring. Wrong number I'm guessing. It was 1pm and I realized I had to start on homework for English.

Chilled, ate and was able to only put out for one assignment out of the 3. Was a little distressed from my Mom but got over it. I raced to work and then they asked me to go to the Galleria Mall's Hollister to get more red line tape. So I was like fuck it, I'll go. For some reason Jay, the head stock manager, wanted everyone who was already there to stay and continue what they were doing. Mind you I started work at 5pm. I set out on the 215 in the bullshit rush hour traffic. Whatever, I'm in no rush. I even went in a couple of stores to "shop" around. Finally got the red line tape. The guy literally stared at me for 5 minutes in silence and finally went OH and realized what red line tape was. Woo, another dumbass manager.

I even gave in and bought candy because I don't remember the last time I've seen those Sweet Factory stores.

They even had Jessica calling me asking where I was. What the bullshit. I didn't even get a reimbursement for gas. So why not waste time just chillen and take my time?

After work I went to go catch Michael Clayton. Honestly, I'm so glad I caught it before it was gone. I liked it a lot and it's up for best motion picture of 2007 for the Oscar's. I have yet to see fucking Atonement but I noticed it was staying at my theatre for another week so yay. Then I'll watch There Will Be Blood.

Niki, if I don't make it in the top 3, I'm going to be sad.

I better win. haha.

I went back to the break room to get some of my friends' schedules and ended up staying to talk to Khadige. Whoever went to Durango probably knows her. Anyways, we were just talking and whatnot. Kind of waited with her before her ride came. Then out of nowhere this random guy comes in and asks us if it would be cool that he left his jacket on the boxes of soda syrup because he didn't want anyone to steal it. Then he pulls out a roll of Starbursts and offers it to us. I refused while Khadige was unsure but took it. She was asking what line of work he was in and he went into how he said in his company, he was obligated in sharing his Starbursts. Then he said that if he loses his jacket, his girlfriend will kill him. Found out he's from some company that built our screens and he needed to check on stuff. After he left, Khadige and I just looked at each other and mouthed What The Fuck.

That was my night.

But uh, foreal, if you have time, watch Demetri Martin's Part 1-6 "If I" skit on Youtube. It's probably one of the most eye-opening skits I've ever came across. I was already still in the philosophical mode after class and helping a friend online about how to pinpoint an argument. But yeah, that skit is hardcore. Love that guy.

Homework time. Haha.

Kill Your Idols

There's this manager named Sarah at Hollister who pisses me off. She treats me like I'm a fucken idiot or something. Last night she exclaimed "WOAH YOU KNOW HOW TO FOLD JEANS?" Mind you that there's a certain way to fold guy's jeans and it's I guess slightly difficult for all the models to figure out. Did I ever mention how much they lack in the common sense department? Well anyways, I was in the middle of explaining to her how I took down one of the jeans I saw folded, opened it up, studied it and followed the folds. Easy enough, don't you think? But she cuts me off and starts talking about how people couldn't figure it out and all this mumbo jumbo.

Prior to this convo, right when I got to Hollister, Jared, the main manager, had left some special tasks for me to do. So she explains to me how Jared says I'm one of the best folders and all this bullshit since he's only seen me fold once and I guess since I get all anal about detailing, it looked nice. So she had me do such things as detailing and making everything look perfect on some of the tables. I eventually ran into Jessica and helped her with work.

So back to the first paragraph, I guess Sarah was just surprised at how "good" I am. Woo, it's not hard to fold clothes bitch.

The first time I worked with her, she made me do USRs, which is a handheld computer device that lets you know what items were sold in the store that day. Thus, you look for these items in the back so we can restock them to the front of the store as if nothing happened. She had me do this last minute, no big deal, but there were 9 other people downstairs just waiting on me to finish. Why didn't she just have them help me? And when they finally did come up, they only chatted and folded what I had pulled out. Then she comes up and acts like I'm slow, finds one thing and gives up because she wanted to go home. So most likely, she put selected the option, can't find, on everything after that on my name and probably fucked up my quota. I'm aggravated with this bitch on first impression already.

Or also last night, Michael, another manager... I asked him if he had anything for me to do because I was extremely bored and walking aimlessly around tugging at shirts. He starts dancing to his metrosexual dance mix he popped in the stereo and just kept dancing. He even did a rock paper scissors dance. I don't even know how to explain that so I'll let your imagination run off. And that was the end of it. He gave me no work. Why do they have such idiots running that place. No wonder Jared is the main manager. Geezus.

I like how I went backwards with this entry.

I figure this deserved it's own entry because Hollister is just that special.

Superstar

I'm listening to the track by Rollergirl currently; not Sonic Youth or The Carpenters. This shit really makes me reminisce 8th grade. Glowsticks, Asian cliques and DDR. Woo. I haven't listened to trance/techno or whatever makes bump noises in years. I couldn't stand it anymore, but mainly because it just sounds the same and I haven't heard any new good beats.

Anyways, the other day my Mom finally got us basic cable. I was super excited cause now I can watch local news and shit. Haha. Well my intentions were to watch The Office and Heroes before, but since those are out of the picture, uhh haha. I barely even have time to sit down.

Uh oh, it just occurred to me that I'm distancing myself from everyone again. Except I'm keeping busy with making money instead of doing community service. It's kind of sad that I don't really care though. As much as I'd like to have someone just call me up, I end up coming up with an excuse to avoid it. I don't know why either. And so far it was pretty difficult to do my homework that was all due today. I know I shouldn't work so much, but since I'm so used to it, I just can't stop. If I don't work, I feel useless and extremely lazy with too much time on my hands. Plus I hate looking at my paychecks if they're decreasing. It really bothers me. Being unproductive is starting to disgust me. So I'm hoping this new thing that I'm growing fond of will help me stop being such a procrastinator. I seriously planned the time and days when I'd be able to do my homework according to my schedule. In the end it didn't work out too well because I seriously didn't have time to myself at all.

I even got a small notebook and am using it as a daily planner. I'm trying to be more organized, yet my room and car is a total mess.

I think if I can get through this semester with decent grades and still with both jobs, I don't even know. But I'd be proud.

If not that, I think maybe I'll find a more stable job with normal set hours and work at Rave like once a week just so I can still watch free movies. I seriously saved over 200 dollars from watching free movies or letting people watch them for free.

Jessica asked me if I wanted to go to the Philippines with her. I kind of want to, just so I can finally say I've been out of the country. Looks like going to any foreign country is fucken ridiculously expensive.

Oh, this one day I was working in box office, I had to sell these $2 charitable hearts to people. Courtland and I were competing and since he was there since the morning, he had already sold about 60. One of my managers, Ms. Aldin, let me pick a DVD from the box that they had cause according to her, I sold 3 bags (10 in each) but I'm sure I sold way more than that. So last minute I noticed Transformers and took that. Found out Courtland didn't get jack, so I hope he got something by now.

I learned another manager, Donnelly, quit cause she couldn't handle the stress from school conflicting with work.

A co-worker, Angel, came in requesting to be an assistant manager. Yet, he only works there once a week. And they asked Chantel if she wanted to be one but we talked about it, and we both didn't even like being supervisor. Apparently you need open availability because it's never a set schedule for them either. I wouldn't be able to stand Steve Winn and his bullshit thought process of wasting time and losing money.

I finally saw what the LX looks like. It's exactly the same fucken size as my monster Sidekick 2. Only difference is, it's SLIGHTLY thinner. But it's still the equivalence in the length. I'm tired of it being so huge.

I think if I get English, or at least half of it done by tonight or tomorrow morning, I'm going to go and catch Atonement before I work at Hollister tomorrow. Or if they don't call me in at Rave.

Geez I need a life.

I Look At All The Lonely People

So I don't really remember my days anymore so I'll just recap what I remember.

I had a dream that the co-worker who gave me a hard time that one night I was supervisor, Cindy, calls me saying she did something to make Andrew hurt himself. I responded with a what and she says just kidding and then asks me if I wanted to eat, but I knew Andrew was with her. Then I woke up. Oh no, I'm dreaming about him.

Another dream I had was, Nalani, this one old classmate of mine back in 9th grade, she was dating Cory, the dude I dig at work. What the fuck. I don't even know why she was in my dream. All I kept thinking in my dream was, wtf, she was dating some guy when I last saw her and what's going onnn. Awkward dreams.

It kind of dawned on me that I have a shit load of homework. So far I've only gotten the Japanese homework out of the way. I started on my criminology homework during my 30 min. break.

Oh and I went back to Beat The Bookstore to get the correct books. The guy who I went to was all who helped you and wtf, I'm sorry. Next thing you know, he gives me the wrong fucken sociology book as well. Hmm, a 212 section book. That makes sense. Man I was pissed. Good news was, I only had to spend 7 dollars more so my total for books this semester was about 90. The guy told me I can come back and yell at them if shit was wrong again.

Jessica lost her wallet with all her most important shit in it. Good game. We can't find it.

Office Depot does not give you reams of paper for empty ink cartridges anymore. They give you $3 dollars for each instead.

I wonder if Office Max still does the reams of paper. I really needed paper damnit.

Caught up on school shopping.

Not working as much as I would like to. Yet I'm busy every single day. Funny how that works.

It's even funnier that I have no time or don't feel like hanging out with anyone. I'm actually not sitting on my ass on the computer all day. Not wasting money eating dinner with people.

I did hang out with Isaac and Jessica though. It was random but chilled at her house and ate. The plan was to watch a movie but they got stuck on WoW. Gay.

Oh and I went to Michelle's house for Nevielle's going away dinner. Played some beer pong. I totally owned and I don't know why. I suck at that game but man, woo. I would be on the phone and I'd make shots. Gracy and I dominated until Nevielle and Michelle gave up the game to other people. Then they tore down our 6 cups. We won in the end though, but still gay.

It rained all day today. It was nice.

I was watching this show on MTV. Something about greatest dance groups in the nation. West coast has some of the sickest moves. My god. I hope Jabba Wakkies win some shit. I'm really disappointed that this guy group who had a routine with just roller skates didn't make it to the finals. Some bullshit I say.

But because of this show, I probably would've never thought to go watch How She Move. I was trying to watch Atonement and even sat down. But I wanted to go get a drink and my manager spotted me and wanted me to work an extra 30 minutes. I didn't even change into my work clothes. Haha, everyone was so confused.

So yeah, How She Move was pretty good. The typical poor kid trying to make it out of the ghetto but lacks money so tries to win a competition to pay for school. Probably only surprising thing is, no one dies from a shooting. Haha.

Funny thing is, I think the people on that dance show were way better than the people in this movie. Kind of sad.

Yesterday was the first time Andrew didn't call me. But that's because we saw each other at work and I ignored him. He did text me asking me if I was mad though. Then today he asked me what's up with me and why I was being mean and I wouldn't say anything and walk away. He tried to find out if I wanted to eat with him after work but nope. I have to set shit straight again with him or something. He needs to get off my nuts. Yeah I said it.

Oh and my mom threw away my Netflix DVDs that I got in mail. Thank goodness I remembered to ask about them. Geezus. Would've been weird reporting that. But I'm a little pissed that they sent me the 3rd and 4th disc to The L Word when I need disc 1 and 2. wtf.

Anddddddd I finally filled out my FAFSA today. It was probably one of the worst experiences of my life because neither my mom or I knew what the fuck it was asking on some stuff. Mainly because we haven't filed our taxes yet so it was just difficult to answer. So half the time we're bickering and trying to fill as much as we can.

I think I'm going to finish criminology now so I can start on other work.

Put The Lotion In The Basket

Time to blog.

First day of school went well. I spent 3 hours of it reading Choke. Tomorrow I'll be working in box office so I'll probably be able to finish the book then.

Andrew, the guy I denied, has been pestering me day and night. Someone make him go away.

I drool everytime I see my other co-worker :(

I've been supervisor twice. The first time was a bitch because Cloverfield had just opened up on that Friday and I had a co-worker that was being the biggest turd burglar ever. The second shift went well and ended up having all my friends on my concession team.

Heath Ledger was found dead today :(

I wonder if he overdosed on Ambien cause my sister takes those and well, that's a story I'm not going to get into.

So far I really like all my classes. My Japanese teacher is pretty good at English so thank god. I wish I didn't get out at 7pm but whatever. And it looks like I know people in all my classes except my philosophy class. Kind of nice how it ended up even though I told myself I shouldn't take classes with people I know so I can finally make some friends.

The day I tried to put in my 2 weeks notice to Hollister, my manager kept saying really nice compliments to me about how I was such a big help or a good worker in the stuff I do and etc. So now I'm going to work there 2 days a week haha. Yay gas money.

Despite what everyone in the world says, I liked Cloverfield. We didn't have to know much about the characters or what the hell the monster is, but just what if you were in their situation. The concept with the video camera was a good idea but I honestly got major motion sickness.

The Orphanage was really good. I watched it by myself and refused Andrew's company since the first time I walked out the theatre pissed. I jumped a few times. It was just nice to watch a movie that didn't have to deal with all those hollywood stars and crazy special effects. The entire movie was in Spanish and had subtitles and I was ultimately intrigued all the same or even more.

I plan on seeing Atonement before it's gone. I've only heard good things about the movie.

On Saturday, January 19th, I took Tiffany to watch Melee with me. I won tickets on 94.1 the night I picked her up to go celebrate at the Casanova's for their birthday. Kind of sad how I won but oh well. We went late and ended up catching all 5 of the bands. It was a little excessive but interesting nonetheless. In the end, there were literally 20 people there just to watch Melee. It was kind of sad but I loved their music. I was really sad that they didn't play Built To Last and they were just going by song requests, mainly by these girls who apparently followed them from their last show in Cali.

I was pretty stoked in the end after selling some clothes and buying my textbooks. I ended up only spending 80 dollars on books for this semester compared to the 500 last semester. But today I learned that Beat The Bookstore sold me the wrong sociology AND criminology books so I'm quite pissed. I hope they apologize and give me some credit toward my books because now I'll be spending over 150.

I haven't been keeping track of my budget, but so far I've just been spending on cheap fast food. Gas went down to $2.97 and I don't have an urge to buy unnecessary things. So go me.

Oh look at that, Andrew is calling me. I am so sick of it, seriously.

Unlike Me

I've never given the bad news to someone's feelings before. I feel drained and helpless about it.

What's worse is, I know my feelings for the other person will end up exactly the same.

haha fucken work drama.

I Need To Taste Your Blasphemy

Jessica and I got pulled into Test America and did these gay ass surveys. I only got $5 for it and wasted like 30 minutes of my life. Couldn't find the one in Fashion Show. I hope it's still there.

Jessica got me H&M and Best Buy gift cards for Christmas, so I put the H&M one to use today. Kind of funny how I didn't even want anything but got forced to try things on to pass time. Worked out in the end.

I saw Jila for like a minute. She handed me a bag of alcohol and found out she was leaving back to Canada tonight.

Okay, so I finally figured out what I'm going to do this year. I'm going to make a monthly budget of $200 for myself.

I think last spring when Wayne was here, he told me his budget was $100 and I didn't believe he could do it. But I forgot, he's the most cheapest person you'll ever meet. So he's been pulling it off and actually has leftover cash in the end.

I figure with about $100 of it will just be going to gas since school and work is kind of far from where I live. I usually get gas about once a week but since I reduced going to school down to 3 days instead of 5, it might not be as bad as last semester.

Then I've also decided to finally start paying my mom $50 for car insurance to help out. If I made more money, I'd definitely give her more, especially to cover from the last bill. I know I'll be paying for books soon, so it's going to be hard paying off the credit card and etc. with this budget, but I'll manage it somehow. I don't really shop and pretty much Christmas kicked my ass, so I'm done spending. I just need to learn not to spend all my money on food. So I figure my last $50 will go to miscellaneous things, but hopefully it'll be leftover money in the end.

The budget seems high but hopefully I don't even need that much as a budget and it'll go lower soon after I test it out.

I'm contemplating on whether if I have leftover cash, should I just put it on the side without really knowing how much I saved and use for later or just disregard the idea and restart $200 every month. I figure I could put the leftover money into the savings so it can collect some pennies for interest.

Oh managing money is going to be interesting.

I hope I get in with Victora Secret. 1 day a week at Hollister is some bullshit on their part and getting paid less than a $100 every 2 weeks from them is even more bullshit.

I was proud that I barely spent anything today until I got to Wal-Mart. I swear, everytime I go to Wal-Mart or Target, I have to spend over 50 bucks on a whole bunch of things for home. Gay.

When You Scream, It Sounds Like A Lullaby

http://lasvegas.craigslist.org/bus/527638957.html

This made my day... the other day. haha. I'm glad they're double our pay, but how do they live off of a salary like that? Unless these new people are actually assistants to our usual managers. Then we have a general manager. Then owner. Hm.

Okay, finally a day off. Let's recap.

I'm not mad anymore. Did it get resolved though? No. But I always get over it.

I hung out with Jila, Trisha and Tony Clifford that next day. (Day after I hung out with Jila) Met up at Fashion Show and watched Trisha steal just about everything she saw.

Then met up at MGM. I got Sonic on the way too, haha.

Went to Gameworks and actually played some games. It was fun I guess. Then the Jurassic Park game stopped working after I shot a civilian and then the dinosaurs stopped coming up on the screen.

I left after that and raced to Kevin's house. I called Wayne numerous times on the way to see if I could stop by to say bye before he left to Hong Kong, but as usual, no answer.

Picked Kevin up and went to Rave to watch P.S. I Love You. Not my idea. I didn't even know what the movie was about. And prior to watching, I complained because I never look at Hilary Swank the same after watching Boys Don't Cry. Well the movie turned out to be really great. I even cried.

I wanted to watch Juno right after but it had already started, so we conversated with my co-workers for a while then went to go watch I Am Legend. I kind of wish I didn't rewatch it.

Then we went to this place called Dessert Avenue where we got the most amazing mango pudding ever. While devouring the pudding, I dominated Kevin in all the card games we played. He won one, but only because he cheated.

Finally dropped him off at like 2:30am.




The next day I went to Burlington to get a comfortor with my mom then to eat dimsum. Saw Ron's family there, but no Ron. Went to work. After, got some Chipotle with Amanda to eat while watching Juno. Well Andrew and Xander, our co-workers, spotted us and sat with us. Then two of our managers and their boyfriends came in as well. It was awkward, and I didn't eat my burrito. Then Amanda got up and left and never came back. And then Xander did as well. I felt awkward being alone with Andrew, but it ended up being okay.

I took Amanda home afterwards. Found out she knew Ariel and Jessica back in the day. She even lived down the street from them. So I went to go visit Jessica and rode with her to go take Ariel and her boyfriend to someone's house. Ariel kind of talked to me, so maybe we're going somewhere.





The other day I woke up at 7am to go deposit my paycheck from Hollister and to drop off a check to pay off my ticket. Then to work. Amanda helped me do my duties as a morning usher and we accidentally made someone mad. Thought the bathroom was locked for no reason and made dumb comments. Ahh, what a good morning.

After work, I watched One Missed Call with Amanda. She had to work and left at a part that I thought was the ending. No. It went on for another 20 minutes. While the entire movie was going, these groups of annoying customers were taunting and yelling at the movie the entire time. I wish Shannyn Sossamon didn't take part in this movie. She can do so much better. Well, I didn't like the movie. But to be honest, it was a lot better than most Asian movie remakes. I'm probably going to end up watching it again with all the co-workers I guess. Eh.
Got some shirts from H&M for the first time. They overcharged me but I corrected them.





Then yesterday, I woke up at 6am-ish to go to Ron's house. I went to go with Alma to take Ron to the airport. I didn't know he was leaving already. Bah.

I don't know why, but I got really creeped out when I was turning off the cleaning lights in all the theatres. I guess it occurred to me that I was entirely alone and it was dark. I don't know, I got weirded out.





So two days off. Hopefully Hollister will need me today. Maybe hang out with Jila.

Oh man. Area 107.9 is doing this thing where if you're their 1079th friend on MySpace, you automatically win all concert tickets for all of 2008. Including the Linkin Park show in March. I rushed to home to check out how many friends they had. Thank god for Mozilla. Yeah, well they only have 710. So. Haha. I have to remind myself to check every now and then.

You Disappoint Me; Maybe You're Better Off This Way

I didn't start this year off very well. Yeah, I'm talking at like 12am New Years Day.

I'm really mad at myself.

I'm really mad at people who make me mad.

I haven't been so down in like a year.

Actually probably a year today.

I don't even know why I'm pushing myself to work so hard.

I almost feel like I'm wasting this break by not spending time with people from out of town. But I know I'm not.
Someone told me this break should be worth enjoying. Time to just sit around and do nothing. I see others literally doing that and I think they're stupid for doing so. But now I'm starting to think I'm the stupid one.

I'm going to be exhausted when school comes around. Am I keeping both jobs? What the hell am I doing?





And I wasn't even supposed to fucken work today. Tomiko called me asking if I could cover for her shift. Mr. Anderson told her to call me. Today was the day I requested off. I was half asleep when she called so I accepted. I was excited to work in box office. Did I? No. I was stuck in concessions. And did I ever get a register? No. I was stuck bagging popcorn for 6 1/2 hours straight, then made nachos for the other hour in a half. I'm pissed. My legs are giving out. I wanted to fucken work in box.

Then I watched my mother and her best friend do drunk karaoke while I ate. I have a headache and am exhausted.

Fuck New Years.