Gotta Hit That Bitch

It's kind of sad how much people influence my beliefs. Well, not entirely, but it does have a slight affect. Tonight I realized how much differently I view certain people and wonder why I even wasted my time getting to know them. More like putting such an effort to be accepted in a group. I'm so over it though. It just intrigues me of how annoyed I get now of people. I used to get annoyed by the littlest things but now it's starting to come back, and I think it might be because of the influence of some conversations. I feel awful about it but it's always easier to keep a distance.

I don't want to be bitter and put down anyong but man, don't you have anything better to do? Seriously. And don't ever give me looks about certain people who have a knack for things that you don't possess. It's very low of you and don't ever think I'm thinking the same thing as you. And don't ever touch me. It should be a rule.

Other than that, if I don't get my time in a half for Christmas shit, I'm going to demand for it. I also have decided that if I don't get a decent raise for the 90 day review, I'm going to quit. Actually, I probably won't, knowing me, but it's worth a shot writing this here to remind myself that I can do so much better. Everyone's quitting and it's a shame because I really do love my co-workers. But I should probably plan on it as well because they really don't pay us enough for the shit we do. They really don't.

And I'm going to make sure they never make me close then open the next day ever again.

And I will never do trash runs ever again. I've never held back so much vomit in my life.

I hope work at Hollister will be chill and not all bullshit since it's the night shift. Fuck, do I hope so.

I forgot today was pay day for Hollister as well. I need to get used to getting paid every week. I hope I can do direct deposit. I don't remember the last time I cashed in a paycheck.

I need to hang out with Jila. I'm so busy and I feel really bad. I mean shit, she only came down here from Canada.

I hope I can see Wayne at least one more time before he leaves. I don't get why he always gets sick the few days before he leaves Vegas. Every single time he comes here it's been like that. And he's going to China for the next 2 weeks.

I feel like Christmas just barely came and went since I worked with such irritable customers. Plus I haven't received or given any presents whatsoever. It's kind of weird not celebrating Christmas at Ron or Alma's house and trying to rip open masking taped presents. I miss it.

I wish my computer would stop being a piece of fucking shit. I wish this break was longer. I wish people would stay just a little bit longer. And I wish there was more time to do things.