Can You Get Up Off Your Knees

Where the fuck do I begin?

I feel like I haven't been at home in a while. For sure haven't been online in a while.

My Mom finally gave in and got a membership to Sam's Club. I'm pretty stoked about it and I don't know why. Haha. The day I went in to go get my picture, I gave in and bought like 30 dollars worth of stuff and found out they don't fucken take Visa. I had to charge it as a debit, was pissed cause I knew I didn't have that money in my account. Worth it in the end though haha. God I love Arizona Green Tea.

Rave actually gave me overtime on my paycheck. Haha for .08 hours. Meaning I got paid like 76 cents. I'm pretty sure Mr. Winn saw that and flipped a bitch cause overtime is definitely not allowed. ;(( So far it's the biggest paycheck I've gotten from there though. Everyone was like wtf cause I pretty much live there.

Uhhh I remember that on Friday, I went to class about an hour in a half late. Not only did I wake up late, I had to finish my free write essay on this article I read about this lady who fucken shoved her baby in the microwave.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/CRIME/01/31/baby.microwave.ap/index.html

Disgusting.

I figure that if I brought the essay incomplete, and since I've had this professor from last semester, he just gives it back and doesn't give you full credit. And since I only go once a week, it's a pain in the ass for that kind of ordeal, so I sacraficed my limited absences and tried to get the essay done.

When I got home, I cleaned out my car. I wanted to go get a car wash but I knew that Sunday was going to be raining all day and then I realized I needed to get my oil change. So yay, a good car wash.

I went to Sam's Club afterward and met up with Isaac to sample some food and get a hotdog. Talked for a bit then went home to change and race to work. Pretty much 10 minutes late.

Work was whatever. I got sent home early, even with a fucken 30 minute break. That's bullshit cause wtf, waste of my time. So after, I ended up watching The Eye with Jenna and Janice. Janice had seen the Chinese version and told me about some scenes so I was anticipating that shit in the movie. Honestly, I got scared a couple of times. The way the movie was, there weren't always scenes that were predictable. Jenna was literally hiding the whole time and when she'd be chill and the movie was alright, music was calm, bam, fucken something pops up. Totally fucked up. Loved it.

After work, Janice and I were heading over to the break room and one of our security guards for the theatre tried to kick us out. What a fucken dumb bitch. I was wearing the uniform and she was like wtf, you guys work here? You sure?

Since I demanded for morning shifts, I got them. Except they fucked up and tried to have me close on Friday and go in at 9:30am the next day. Since Friday wasn't as busy as they expected, we hoped Saturday would pick up better business since the Jonas Brothers were in town. Bam, got sent home only 3 hours into my shift. I hate it when Mr. Anderson does that shit. So I got the chance to finally watch Atonement. Excellent movie. Definitely tops Michael Clayton for best motion picture award. Such a sad movie. I was a little envious of the couples around me in the theatre, but at the same time, I laughed at them because the theatre isn't meant for couples and they were all struggling to be close to each other. Hah.

After that, I felt the need to drive to my sister's house and no reason why. Just drove over there. Played some Rock Band and ate pizza. Since I ended up not hanging out with Jessica, I stayed with them. We went over to their friend, Kelly's, and watched the UFC fight with Brock Lesnar. That guy is a fucken monster. He wailed on that guys face like crazy. It was crazy how he was doing all that shit, but just a slight miscalculation and he's tapping out. After that they pulled out Rock Band and all did each instrument, including singing. Shit was funny. I owned their faces at guitar and bass.

Ended up crashing at my sister's house since she's close to work. Played more Rock Band and actually tried the singing shit. Learned that you don't need to know the words but just the melody. Even got my sister to kind of sing. Interesting bonding time we had.

So I get to work and Simone tells me I can't clock in until 9:45. Mind you my shift started at 9am and I get there 10 minutes late anyways. I'm like wtf and stand in the break room thinking fuck that and just clock in. I acted like I didn't know and just went about the theatre doing my duties of an usher and turned off cleaning lights. In the middle of it, Ms. Auciello finds me and is all DID YOU CLOCK IN? I tell her I did and she explains to me how Mr. Winn thinks we're wasting money in having everyone come in so early. So you're gonna have people come in and not clock in for 30-45 minutes later? Yet you're gonna have them be working? Yeah fuck that and fuck you. After I did the cleaning lights, I chilled in the break room with everyone and talked shit for a while. Everyone ended up clocking in anyways.

New douchebag manager, is nicknamed Ratatouille. Kind of sad, but he really does resemble a rat.

Since Ms. Mason was working, I got to stay for my whole shift. The day was chill, except for Ratatouille being such a fucken faggot. Then hopped over to Hollister to work. Jae, the second head stock guy, kind of made a small convo with me. Introduced himself to me even though I've met him before. The first time he met me, he seemed eager but then dropped it when he found out I wasn't Korean. This time, I don't know, but it was weird. Apparently I was the only impact person for the night but was stuck downstairs fixing clothes. I guess the managers got the word that I'm good at detailing shit and putting the sizing stickers on incredibly straight. Meh.

Ended up closing the store hella early cause I fixed everything too fast. Damn me.

Giants won the SuperBowl. Big woop. I really don't care for the SuperBowl.

Visited Neecey, my old co-worker from Prudential. Talked a little and watched a little of this pageant where both the Mom and daughter are running together. Kind of weird.

After I went to go visit Nevielle at her roommates place. I guess she got in a huge fight with her Mom and dipped and has been staying at this house up on Blue Diamond and Durango. It was nice for once not drinking and just talking. We hella got into scary stories and superstitions and all these Asian horror flicks. I kind of scared myself. Finally went home at like 2:30am.

Woke up late today but got to work right on time. So I'm 10 minutes late for the past 3 days but I'm okay today haha.

Got to work with Cory, uhh. Haven't seen his ass for like 2 weeks. It was cool talking to him. Plus I bothered Courtland and finally started talking to Kyle. Cory was tearing down the National Treasure and Sweeney Todd props. He ended up taking the knife and the hand from the Sweeney prop. Fucken when he walked down the hallway with the knife, it reminded me of that Final Fantasy character with the huge sword. I forgot his name.

Since he left early, we fucked up on shit with scheduling and giving breaks. Kind of funny. But at least I got an extra 25 minutes out of it.

After I decided to watch There Will Be Blood. Someone ended up sitting next to me. I think I was only okay with it since the seats are so big but at the same time, i felt not so alone. The movie was really good. I found out the guy from Little Miss Sunshine, the son, was in there. Realized I wanted to watch this movie for a long time because of this crazy sermon he did in this preview I saw. Totally forgot about it. His performance in this movie is crazy and completely different from his other roles in all other movies.

I was thinking to myself on Thursday after philosophy class about the video we watched called Obedience. The Milgram Experiment. Don't know if you guys heard about it, cause the only time I knew of it was when I took PSY101 last semester. The experiment originated right after the Holocaust and it was just to see how far people would go in listening to authority. There would be two people who would come in for this experiment and they'd be paid like $450 to do it. One will be the teacher while the other is the student. Both are in separate rooms and both know what each other has to do. The teacher has to read off a list of words to the student that are in no relation together. So they'll say "sad-girl, sunny-day". Then when they say "sad", they give 4 answers and the student has to say what the matching word is. For every wrong word, the teacher has to read off the volts he's giving and gives a shock to the student. So the student is buckled up to a chair being shocked in another room and for every wrong answer, the shock becomes more severe. At one point during the experiment, the student mentions how they have a heart problem and they need to get the fuck out and they start screaming louder and louder. This is where you notice if the teacher decides to quit the experiment or keeps going. So this is either a make it or break it situation where the teacher can stop and say fuck your money, I don't want that guy to die. The scientist will keep pushing them to keep on with the list of words. In the end you find out that the "student" is actually just an actor fucking with the teacher's head.

Studies showed that out of the 100 people they tested on, 50% of them stayed and gave the maximum deadliest shock until the end. And you also notice how everyone laughs everytime they hear the guy crying out in pain. It was kind of weird but I guess it is true. Then someone re-did the experiment last year. It's somewhere if you dig in the news.

After watching the movie, it just made me think about how I'm at work and when they had me be supervisor. I couldn't take the pressure of them telling me what to do and trying to delegate orders. I just couldn't do it. I could care less if that makes me a bad manager or whatever, but at least I know what my limits are and am not letting someone drag me all over the place.