Get It Faster

Okay, time for a somewhat meaningful post.

I swear I was tired. I really was. But then Alex, my other friend, called me and asked if she could get some stuff cause she ran out.

Well I stood outside with her and talked for about 20-30 minutes or so about what's going on in her home life.

Right now I'm back tracking. Back in the day, Alex and I used to hang out 24/7. I can't remember if I mentioned this in this blog or not, but anyways, we did. She still lives like a 5 minute walking distance from me, but we don't hang at all. I know I mentioned that she became this huge party girl. Well anyways. I was stuck with her 24/7. After school I'd spend time there and then go to work. Then after work, go to her house. It was a ridiculous routine, but I loved it. I was extremely close to their family and they loved me. Well it got a bit excessive at one point. To the point where they'd ask me for rides to here and there.

It was fine cause I loved driving... and it was my mom's car. But then it got aggravating to the point where her mom would rely on me or even called me when I was at home. She really was a nice lady but it really started to get bothersome. Especially her psycho obese boyfriend, Oscar. I'd give Alex a ride to and from work almost all the time. Her work is just up the street, but again, rides rides rides.

Well, to be honest, I can't really remember how exactly Alex and I stopped talking. I think it was from talking to Cathleen and Jessica so much about how stressed out I was. They told me I should lay off in hanging out, so I did. Slowly I wouldn't be over as much and not on the phone as much as well.

There was this one day though, I remember. Jessica was on the phone with Carmela and was told that Alex kissed Carmela. Alex was really drunk. Blah blah blah. Jessica, Cathleen and I go to Alex's but I didn't go up cause I didn't want to see her in that state of mind cause I had shit to tell her. I remember going home and Cathleen IMing me, telling me about what Carmela told her. Mind you that Carmela and Cathleen are sisters, and they pretty much tell each other everything despite their differences. Well Carmela was talking to Alex and one of her brothers, Chris. I guess Chris wanted to know who started this whole not talking thing cause apparently Cathleen and Jessica stopped hanging out with Alex too. Chris suspected it was me who started it and talked shit or something and said "it's okay, she was just a ride to the supermarket anyways." This is where I gave up on that family. I was angry. I was truly hurt. Of all the shit I did for them, I was just a ride to the supermarket? Oh, and Alex didn't even kiss Carmela. Miscommunication.

Moving on. These days, I see Alex like once a month. Well, she got into her family situation, as usual. She's always had family problems. I knew that first hand. But I guess she wanted to fill me in on what I've missed for the past half a year.

She's starting to get it real rough. Oscar got caught with a crack pipe.

Cory, her other brother, is in North Las Vegas with their grandpa cause he got kicked out. He's 17 right now. I guess everytime they go out to North Las Vegas, the brothers always get into some shit, so right now, Cory has been banging a lot.

Chris went to North Las Vegas for a week and already got jumped into a gang.

Christina and Justice, her 2 younger sisters, got picked on at Diskin a lot. They'd come home with scratches and bruises which really pissed me off. So now they go to Frank Kim.

And Alex went job hunting today. Hopefully she'll get a job that pays roughly 15 and hour and says she'll save 3 full paychecks and move herself and all the siblings out of the house. I believe they may be getting evicted, even though Alex is paying rent. Her mom is a real dumbass with money and spends it on the most useless and unnecessary things.

I'm really glad she is finally thinking about moving out. It's been a talked about subject for years but it's about time something gets done. I really hope the best for her.

I guess the whole point of this entry is, I finally don't feel sorry for her. I do feel a bit guilty for thinking she complained too much about how bad she has it. But I always knew she'd find a way out cause she's a really smart and bright girl. I just hope she can figure something out cause she has 4 siblings. None of which have graduated yet or wanting to. Or at least her brothers.

I really hope I can use her as an example or something and just appreciate everything more. Not just when I go to other people's houses or when someone holds the door for me, but when my mom comes home and actually greet her and maybe have a conversation with her. Maybe even call my dad and see how he's doing. As of right now, I've been visiting my sister quite a few times at her work, so I'm sure she appreciates that.

I need to keep things organized and my room clean. I need to do a lot of things. Too many things. But I am on the right track in getting a job and hopefully a second one already.

I need inspiration. I need positivity in my life. I'm going to figure shit out. Actually study for tests. Do things when asked only once or even before asked. Just fucking do something with my life. Stop wasting time.